Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did,
i will not let myself,
cause my heart so much misery,
i will not break the way you did,
you fell so hard,
i ve learned the hard way
to never let it get that far


because of you
i never strayed too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don t get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
because of you
i am afraid

i lose my way
and it s not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because you know that s weakness in your eyes
i m forced to fake
a smile,a laugh everyday of my life
my heart can t possibly break
when ity wasn t even whole to start with


i watched you die
i heard you cry every night in your sleep
i was so young
you should have known better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else
you just saw your pain
and now i cry in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing

because of you
i never strayed too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don t get hurt
because of you
i try my hardest just to forget everything
because of you
i don t know how to let anyone else in
because of you
i m ashamed of my life because it s empty
because of you
i am afraid

because of you
because of you

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